The Album

"My signature has always been the final touch in everything I create, it represents my art and who I am" - Fabien.

I've been far gone for long enough, and now is time for a comeback. I went through many things, many feelings, many emotions that haven't let me be at peace.

Music for me has been an escape. There were moments when I felt completely lost, when the weight of everything was too much to carry. Times when I questioned myself and had no idea how to continue. But thanks to God, I found a shelter in the art, an inspiration for me to keep my way to grow as a person and overcome all the pain I feel, A way to express myself

I hope you like it as much as I do.

Musical Journey

I've always loved art. I've been fascinated by painting, literature, music, dance, architecture, theater and cinema. Each a unique vessel through which human emotion, thought, and imagination find shape. Art is more than beauty or technique; it is the raw language of the soul. It allows us to communicate what cannot be said, to feel what cannot be touched. Through color, sound, movement, and words, we translate our inner worlds into something tangible, something that resonates across time and culture. Art captures our joys, our pain, our questions, and our dreams. It holds up a mirror to society and, at the same time, offers us a window into the minds and hearts of others. Art connects us. It reminds us that we are not alone in what we feel.

Music has always been part of my life. It’s something I’ve always enjoyed, something that feels familiar, like a steady presence through the years.
As time went on, I began to appreciate the way music can shape a mood or bring back a feeling. I didn’t need to understand everything about it to feel connected. It was enough to listen and enjoy what I heard. I’ve never stuck to one genre. I find something to appreciate in many styles, rock, jazz, classical, folk, electronic. Each one offers something different, and that variety has always kept things interesting. Music is something I return to often, because it has a way of fitting into whatever I’m feeling. Whether I’m trying to concentrate, unwind after a long day, or simply enjoy a quiet moment, there’s always a song or sound that seems to meet me where I am.

That's why, because of my nature, I always enjoyed singing and tried to learn to play different instruments like my beloved acoustic guitar. I've been told I was born with a natural talent for drawing. It was not like that when it came to singing, being honest, I always sucked at it, but that didn't stop me to keep singing out loud the songs I really enjoyed even being in public despite people might find it kind unpleasant. With time, I improved a bit. It didn’t become a great singer, but my voice softened, found a bit more control, a bit more shape. And even without great technique, I can at least now match kind of emotion. It was never about being impressive. It just became a way to feel, to connect, to let something real out.

I am not a master musician who fully understands musical theory or can play an instrument like the professionals. But I could follow where the feeling led me enough to shape a melody, enough to put chords together and turn emotions into something I could hear. I learned the basics of how to play different instruments, and over time, I started to understand how music works, the patterns, the progressions, the way one note leads into another. It took me a long time but I kept improving without really noticing, it came all naturally, eventually being able to make my own songs. I guess I have a good ear or at least one that knows how to turn feeling into sound.

N Stands For Nobody

"No longer feeling like I'm lost, she's been giving me the hope, and her name begins with N.
But I'm still talking to myself, thing I didn't want to say, because N stands for Nobody"

The Songs

2024 has been the worst year of my life. I lived the most traumatic experience I ever had.

It left me feeling hollow, like something had been torn out from the center of me. For a while, everything felt quieter, heavier, like even the smallest moments had lost their color. I kept moving through the days, but something in me had changed. It wasn’t just sadness, it was a kind of silence I didn’t know how to fill, or how to show.

It was then when I felt the most lost, when I didn't know how to show or tell my feelings when I started writing my own songs. I felt encouraged to start something I had always wanted to do, but until then had seemed out of reach.

As a way to let the weight out, to say what I couldn't say out loud. It was just the only way I knew to make sense of everything. Each line, each melody, was a small step toward understanding myself again.

What is love?
Some might call it a feeling, an emotional response to connection, care, and closeness. Others might say it's a choice, a decision to stay, to support, to invest in someone beyond the surface. It can look like comfort, or like effort. It can grow quietly over time or strike suddenly without warning.

Love can be trust, respect, a sense of safety. It can also be vulnerability, risk, and change. People experience it differently. Some in gestures, some in words, some in presence. Maybe that's part of what makes it so hard to define, and why, despite all the definitions, the question keeps being asked.

But sometimes, is something we think we need in shape of belief more than a truth. The idea takes root quietly, that certain things, certain connections, are necessary for our happiness. That without them, something essential is missing. And we carry that belief, often without questioning it, letting it influence how we measure joy, how we interpret silence, how we view our own lives. Yet beneath that, there’s uncertainty. We’re not always sure if what we long for would truly bring the fulfillment we imagine, or if it's simply the shape we’ve been taught to give to happiness. It becomes difficult to tell whether the absence we feel is real, or just a reflection of an expectation we’ve never stopped to examine.

This was my first song. When I wrote "N stands for Nobody" I was idealizing the happiest version of myself, next to someone I could truly love, someone who makes my life bright, get comfort in the bad times, my reason for smile and the one who gives stability to my life. The reality... nobody was that person. Who else to love and rely on in order to be happy, if not myself?

All In

What can I say about this song?
One day I met a blonde girl I instantly liked. Let's be honest, there was a connection between us, and we liked each other. I'm not gonna say how it ended but I can say I was feeling the illusion of love coming to me, even if I had had past experiences that didn't leave me quiet well, I was letting things flow with this girl.

"Al In" is that. Describes the feelings of falling for someone letting the illusion take over. Deep down, you know it’s risky, because getting lost in that hope can leave you hurt if things don’t work out. But love is a gamble, and this song is about placing that bet, choosing to believe that the person you're falling for could either bring you incredible happiness or deep sadness

"I bet my heart, my soul, my mind."

Survivor

The song talks about the feeling after a breakup you did not expect, when the other person betrayed your trust, someone you really loved left you in the worst way. A situation that hurt you badly, that feels like you almost die, but at the end you are still alive, you survived, to realize you weren't the one who actually lost.

I believe everyone has passed through this at some point. It really hurts, but as they say... "what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger". And with time, you begin to heal, not by forgetting, but by growing around the pain. You start to see things more clearly. You understand your own worth. And eventually, that wound becomes a scar, not something that defines you, but something that reminds you of how far you've come.

"Ignore the scars that will remain, cause even after all I suffered I survived"

I remember I was truly inspired by Ed Sheeran's classic rapped acoustic hip hop like "Don't" or "You Need Me, I Don't Need You" when I was writing the lyrics of this song. By that time I was meeting new people all the time, jumping into connections that seemed promising, only to watch them fade just as quickly. Every time I thought, “This could be something real,” it would simply slip away.

The lyrics of "Reset" paint a candid picture of modern romantic confusion, the emotional whiplash of fleeting relationships, and the desire to find the true and lasting one. The song navigates the tension between vulnerability, impulsivity, and disillusionment wrapped in that looping emotional cycle. Can be read as a realistic reflection of modern dating, where dating apps, hookup culture, and emotional fatigue coexist. Oscillating between wanting depth and settling for short-term comfort or distraction.

"Why does it look like we use each other?
Is this real love or maybe just a cover?
Why do people dread being without a lover?
How am I supposed to feel when it's all over?"

Reset

McGirl

The Sunset Isn't Beautiful

This song was born from memories, because these were emotions I had felt once, a long time ago, emotions I had to revive in order to meet the feeling in the lyrics.

Who hasn't fallen in love? Those flying butterflies, those hearts drawn everywhere... Suddenly, everything feels brighter, time moves slower around them, and even the simplest moments feel special. It’s soft, sweet, and full of wonder, like the world has opened up just for you.

I have to be honest, the title of this song, along with certain references embedded in the lyrics, can only be understood by one person, the one who once made me feel everything this song captures.

"I gotta admit, you make me fall in love
Every time I hear you call me McBoy"

I needed to match those warm cozy folk vibes when I was writing this song.

This song uses the imagery of a sunset to explore the emotional weight of someone's departure. While sunsets are often seen as beautiful, symbolic moments, marking closure or peace, here, we can take on a deeper, more melancholic meaning. The fading light becomes a metaphor for the loss of someone who once brought warmth and joy.

The line “The sunset isn’t beautiful” obviously serves as a poignant contradiction to the commonly romanticized phrase “The sunset is beautiful, isn’t it?” which often implies a bittersweet acceptance of letting go. But in this case, there's no acceptance. The beauty is gone with the person, and nothing feels the same without them.

"But now the sunset isn't beautiful
Without you"

Since The Beginning

"Since The Beginning" is that slow, emotive ballad with a raw and confessional tone I needed to transmit that bright and emotional, fitting for bittersweet storytelling. I put much emphasis on the electric guitar as the main element of a 6/8 blues, inspired by the soulful ballad style of songs like Ed Sheeran’s “Dive” and the introspective guitar-driven sound of artists like John Mayer, the track blends heartfelt honesty with a moody, reflective atmosphere.

The lyrics explore the quiet tragedy of knowing something might not last, loving anyway, and having to let go. It reflects a mature, reflective kind of heartbreak, not just pain, but the wisdom that sometimes love is not enough, and that doesn’t make it any less meaningful. No blaming, just the acknowledge of reality. Where the love was real, the effort was honest, but the outcome was always going to be the same.

"But I knew since the beginning
That you and me were never meant to be together"

Danger And Delight

I have to admit, this song came out of nowhere. It wasn’t part of the original list of ideas I was working on, didn’t even have a title until the chorus started to take shape. It all began one day when I was casually humming random melodies that popped into my head, and suddenly I landed on a tune and rhythm that really stuck with me. That’s when I knew it needed lyrics to bring it to life.

I felt instant inspiration from that iconic song of the singer I truly admire, Shawn Mendes' "There's Nothing Holding Me Back".
Lyrically, the song explores the magnetic pull between two people, driven by physical attraction and the mystery of emotional chemistry. It’s playful, yet seductive, walking that fine line between excitement and risk.

"Every time you look at me with those eyes of desire
That sultry gaze of danger and delight"

Pink Petals

I could see for the first time with my own eyes a real cherry tree when this song came to my mind. Something I really loved, a moment of calm and peace.

The song reflects a gentle, heartfelt longing for a distant love, set against the serene beauty of Japan in spring. Through vivid imagery of cherry blossoms, quiet paths, and lingering memories, you can feel both the sadness of absence and the warmth of cherished promises. It’s a cozy, nostalgic piece filled with emotional intimacy and quiet hope.

It conveys the quiet sorrow of being separated from someone you deeply love, while holding on to the faint hope that they’ll return one day. In contrast to my other songs that may dwell in sad acceptance, here the lyrics express a longing that’s emotional yet steady, a love strong enough to wait, no matter how long it takes. It holds onto a gentle, persistent hope that things might return to how they once were.

“Just know, for you I’m still waiting here”

Gray Skies

Probably the saddest song in the album. I was looking for it, one song that conveys a deep, melancholic, and introspective mood. A piece that could hold the emotional weight of loss, longing, and unresolved sorrow following a breakup. I drew inspiration from slow piano ballads like Lewis Capaldi's songs and one song that really touched me... Harry Styles' "Falling".

The idea for the lyrics came from a very real and repetitive moment: waking up each day to a fully overcast sky, a typical winter scene in my city. During those days, everything felt gray, not just the sky, but the world itself. There was no color, no sense of movement, just the quiet certainty that things wouldn’t get better.

"I keep falling into sorrow of gray skies"

God Knows Why

"I wonder why I have to fall and lose the hope, it isn't fair
I don't know why I have to cry and suffer while I keep my faith"

There are moments in life when it feels like we’ve lost everything, when we can’t even find ourselves, and the whole world seems to be against us. It reflects the pain, confusion, and helplessness we experience as we wonder why we have to face such hardships, especially when nothing feels fair. But deep down, it’s a reminder that there’s a reason for everything we endure. Even if we don’t understand it now, only God knows why we must walk these difficult paths.

As I say, I wrote all this songs during one of the most difficult times of my life, a moment when everything felt heavy and I struggled to find a way to express what was inside. I have never proclaimed or denied my faith, but it’s something that has always been present in my life, especially after I found in God a shelter and the strength to keep going through these hard moments, even when it seemed I was completely abandoned for everything bad that happened, I never gave up my faith.

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This song title will be revealed with the album release

THANK YOU

I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for taking the time to listen to any of my songs. I hope that at least one of them is of your liking, something you enjoy or can connect with in some way. As I’ve said before, writing these songs was my way to share emotions I couldn’t express in any other form. Each melody and line was born from moments when I felt the need to let those feelings out and give them a voice. Knowing that someone out there might feel understood through these lyrics means more to me than I can say.